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[12 Mar 2006|11:38am]
[ mood | NOT getting head >_> ]

Yeah, if I get a bruise on my head, someone's going to get their ass kicked. I swear to god. What kind of sick humor goes around in people's heads nowadays, anyway? "I'm bored. I think I'll go throw things at Riku!" What the fuck.

The party wasn't so bad, though. Sora, Wakka, and Tidus were there so it was a little... weird. But whatever. Sora wants us all to hang out. ... And snowboard. I don't really know what he's thinking, but... I don't. Really care.

Tidus and Wakka were practically having sex all over Zidane's couch. And then Tidus just passed out. ... Not, like, when they were practically having sex, but afterward.

Sora and I played DDR. I kicked his ass at it. Sora, you suck.

And not even in a good way.


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[21 Feb 2006|09:49pm]
[ mood | content ]

Well, Valentines Day was a definite plus for me. It's kind of funny how things work out. I should take chances more often. I mean, I like it. -=sticks out tongue=- It looks cool. Hurt like a bitch, but it was worth it. Oh well.

I hear that Wakka's back. Good for him and Tidus. Aye. Knowing Sora, though, he'll want to have one of those friend reunions. =_= Where we all sit around and catch up and shit. Ahh well. I'm expecting something like that, either way.

Man, I feel like I'm getting addicted to piercings. I was seriously thinking about getting an eyebrow ring for the hell of it. I think I may, uh, need help. Whatever.

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[14 Feb 2006|07:06am]
[ mood | relaxed ]

It's Valentines Day.

Thank the lord.

Thanks, Zex.

Sora, I've got your gift personally. I need to see you later. I love you.

Everyone else, hope your day is filled with... joy... and all of that stuff.

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[24 Jan 2006|06:06pm]
[ mood | Ow. OwowowowFUCKow. ]

Ahh, fuck. Ah' can't... ta... kum... hear... very we... ll.

Shit. Shit.

Ow. Fuck. Ow.


-=needs to go somewhere=-

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[17 Jan 2006|10:08am]
[ mood | indifferent ]

The worst is over, I guess.

I think I need to just move on with life, change the wrong, and get over myself. Yeah, that sounds good. Eh, and I need to stop overreacting, too.


That's about it.

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[12 Jan 2006|04:14pm]
I... just don't know.

I think I'm relieved.

[08 Jan 2006|06:01pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

DAMNIT, Reno. I know you like pissing me off, but leaving me at the fucking bar and stealing Kadaj's bike? Are you out of your MIND? It took me three fucking hours to get out of there. And I pray to god you didn't hurt the bike. God, tell me you took care of it. You fucking prick. What kind of fucking drive do you get out of that, anyway?! -=sigh=-

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[06 Jan 2006|12:24pm]
Tidus is back.

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[02 Jan 2006|02:19pm]
[ mood | serious ]

Alright guys, here's the deal.

If you wanna help Sora, get to my dorm immediately. Room 102.

We're going on a search.

Zack and I aren't gonna wait for long, so hurry it up.

We don't have time to waste.

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[31 Dec 2005|12:38pm]
[ mood | frantic ]

... ... ...

Sora. Has been kidnapped.

I. Don't know what to do.


No, really. What the fuck. I'll KILL that guy.



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[29 Dec 2005|09:42am]
[ mood | drained ]

I think things are starting to get better. I'm not going to lie and say that everything's great, but things are getting better and I think that's important right now. Very important.

I still feel like I've gotta do something, though. Something outrageous. I just haven't thought of anything...

Sucks that I missed the dance, though. Not many people are talking about it, so I guess nothing too fantastic went on.

Reno? You're lucky I'm in a decent mood. If I wasn't I'd definitely be kicking your ass right about now. You fucking owe me a new window. -=sigh=- Couldn't have just left it outside my door, could you? ...

Sora's sleeping the day away over there. I think I really stressed him out... I don't know how to fix everything. I think I'll probably just hang around here for the day. Maybe download some new songs. I don't know.

I honestly don't know.

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[24 Dec 2005|06:35pm]
[ mood | decent... only... sort of... ]

I can't help but feel a little bit down.

Things are better, though, than they were before... not perfect, but...

I have faith. For now, I should stop worrying.

It's Christmas Eve, after all.

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[21 Dec 2005|08:17am]
[ mood | ... ]

Still haven't talked to him. What is wrong with me, anyway? He's been back for a day or so... I don't even remember. But I haven't even said "welcome back" or anything like that. God, I can't believe myself. I need to talk to him, but I can't bring myself to see him... or talk to him...

I feel so guilty.

I could have prevented this.

So I'm just... going to go out for the day. I don't care where I end up... or when I get back... I just need space or something like that. Just... yeah.

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[19 Dec 2005|02:08pm]
[ mood | I can't even describe... ]

Everything is so fucked up right now. I haven't really wanted to update this thing... I don't want to leave my dorm. I don't want to do anything... not after what happened. The fridge is running low on food, but I'm not going to the store to get any. I don't think I've even eaten in days. I have a pile of homework, but I haven't even glanced at it. I think people have knocked on the door, but I never tried to open it for them... never answered their calls. I can't do anything.

This is all my fault. He's supposed to come back soon, but I have this feeling that he won't want to. Especially if he finds out what a fucking prick I am... I hate myself. How could I do that...? What was I thinking? Not thinking, more importantly?

Everyone is going to hate me. Especially if I hurt Sora... I would never intentionally hurt him... I would never even think about hurting him. But I know he will be hurt. I know him. He'll hate me. He won't trust me anymore. He won't love me anymore

The sad thing is... I can't even blame anyone but myself. It's my fault all of this happened. I can't forgive myself. It might not even be that big of deal to the average person, but... it is to me. And it probably will be to him. What he thinks, what he feels... that's the only thing that matters to me when it comes to things like this.

I don't know if I want to talk about him or not. I'd say that I'm leaving, but I have nowhere to go. I can't even go home, the normal escape from people in this place... Which means I'll be here through the entire holiday, cooped up in my room like a coward.

The worst part is that I can't help but think that maybe he'd be better off without me.

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[09 Dec 2005|04:43pm]
[ mood | like I'm missing something... ]


I'm glad cold weather doesn't bother me much.

Not a lot to say.

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My turn, I guess. [05 Dec 2005|06:39pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

...Well, I guess I can't say I don't deserve it.

Completely and utterly sick with a cold. At least... I think it's a cold. It fucking hurts to swallow and I can't tell if my body is freezing or burning up. I think it's a little of both.

So, basically, I think I'll just be laying down a lot... It hurts to eat.


There goes my chances of getting close with Sora. Aye.

[ OOC: This goes for IRL life, too. x_X; Don't know where it came from, but I feel shitty. So, when I'm on against my mother's wishesif I'm on, despite my stupid condition, I apologize in advance if I'm not the friendliest person. D: ]

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[03 Dec 2005|04:29pm]
[ mood | bipolar ]

Just been basically staying low lately.

It's funny how I'm so bipolar. -=snickers=- Can be depressed and happy at the exact same time. I don't get it.

Still clueless on gifts. Either everybody's afraid of telling me what they want or they just want me to get them... stuffed animals. Pink and fuzzy ones. For everyone. I'd do it, too.

It's all basically good, though. Life, I mean.


-=sigh=- I need a new laptop.

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[29 Nov 2005|08:51am]
[ mood | Not worried. No, not at all. ]


After reading Yazoo's journal about Kadaj, I'm really starting to worryget curious. Yeah, curious.

... ... ... No, seriously, I'm worried. Is he going to be okay?

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Reasons why Riku shouldn't do essays. [27 Nov 2005|10:01pm]
[ mood | delirious ]

... ... ... Yeah.

...This is why I shouldn't get to pick my own books for book reports. I end up grabbing a Madonna book and this is the result. Aye.Collapse )

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Does it seem early or what? [24 Nov 2005|11:25am]
[ mood | tired in a whiny sort of way ]

Interesting conversation came up last night. For the break... going home or staying here? Really, I have no clue. I was kind of hoping that we could stay here, seeing as I don't really likeget along with a lot of people at home. ...Mostly parents. But Sora wants to go, which is fine with me. Seriously. -=glances around=- I guess that's just something to worry about later.

Other than that, I wish I knewwant to know what happened with Sora and Zexion last night after I left. Decided to go out and give them some free time, but didn't end up getting back until after late.

-=yawn=- Oh, it's Thanksgiving, isn't it? Happy Thanksgiving, everyone. I still don't know what anyone wants for Christmas, which just saves me some money, I guess.


Wait. Thanksgiving. That means I've gotta cook, doesn't it? Ahh, fuck. -=sighs=- I completely forgot. I guess I've gotta go food shopping... or something. No, it's gotta be too late for that... -=trails off=-

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